It's been a while since I blogged so I thought I'd share the 2 Psalms I wrote for a class assignment in seminary. I love being raw and vulnerable with my Savior. He knows my heart and gets me like no one else. I loved doing this assignment and I pray my psalms encourage you to cry out to Jesus and let him in.
Psalm of Lament
Lord, I am wailing out to you, do
you not hear?
And what will you do if I continue
in this inexcusable fear
and if I proceed to weep,
searching for help with
confusion that continues to seep?
Will you hear me? Answer my pain?
Or will you let me be, going
frantically insane?
I long for your help from this
ugly sin,
causing me to weep, desiring to
win.
Transgressions, misdeeds, all this
wrong living in me.
It’s tearing me up, killing this
heart, wanting to be free.
Lord, I weep; I hurt. Consuming in
lies, bringing me down,
so many tries. Yet this face
still sits a frown.
Have you rejected me?
Leaving me in the dark where my
eyes cannot see?
Assuming I’ll find the mark laid
out before me?
It never dies, not even when I
pray.
Does it even matter what I say?
It’s wrong, it’s wrong!!
Can’t I see, I’m blinded by Satan’s
way.
This sin is an addiction I crave.
I lose myself to that little voice.
This sin, I have fallen and made
myself slave.
Save me from this pit; this
blazing fire.
This being longs to fit in your
heart’s desire.
The devils’ screaming, breathing
down my neck
and I feel like a wreck.
Your heart is filled with pain
and these tears, they keep on
streaming. I am a mess.
O God, listen to my prayer, hear
my cry and open your ears.
Look at these tears of mine.
I long for you. Your love and
truth are all that keeps me
together.
My sins are all around me, and I
can’t find my way.
I feel weak. Please show that you
care and come to my rescue.
You are my savior, O my God, come
quickly. Help me to defeat this sin.
No one else can rescue me. You
will give me victory and crush this sin.
A Psalm of Praise
O, thank God, he’s so good.
When I am inside God's walls I feel
safe.
He looks after me.
Even if all other walls fall,
I hold to the truth because God is
my place of safety.
I live with the Lord for He is my
stronghold.
The world is busy outside of its
walls,
But my trust is in God, for He will
guide me.
The enemy fights for my attention,
but God fights more.
And this sin is chasing after me,
but God is calling out to me.
His love never runs out.
He set me free a long time ago.
His love endures forever.
So I thank God for His marvelous
love
And for the wonderful things he
does for me.
O, thank God, he’s so good.
I see what he has done and it takes
my breath away.
This sin tried to get cozy with me,
but I cried out to God with my
mouth.
He heard my plea and came to my
rescue.
He came quickly when he heard my
prayer.
Praise God, for he did not ignore
my prayer
Or withdraw his unfailing love from
me.
His love endures forever.