Torn Up Inside

Today is the anniversary of my Aunt Cecelia's tragic death.  March 31, 2006 is the day her life ended on this earth.  That was a very hard and painful day, but the weeks and year to follow only led to more pain and hardship. Left with little answers, but I know there will be a day when the truth comes out. I cried out to the Lord many nights that year. Wrestling with Him, longing for answers. Today, this heart still grieves and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't miss her. I loved the relationship I had with my precious aunt Cecelia. Below is a poem I wrote that tragic year during the most painful mourning I have ever walked through.

Torn Up Inside

I wallow in my pain,

It’s hard to let go.

Barely staying sane,

I feel so low.

Broken into pieces,

Trying to move on,

Distant from Jesus,

I cry all day long.

My heart is aching,

Cecelia’s gone.

The sorrow is growing,

Time passes on.

I toss and turn,

Praying to God,

Trying to understand-

“WHY DID SHE BURN?”

The pain hasn’t left,

I continue to mourn.

Seeking answers,

I feel so torn.

This love makes me cry,

It tears me up within.

“WHY DID SHE DIE?”

I just can’t understand.

I’ll miss her love,

This I can’t deny.

Thank God from above,

This isn’t goodbye!

Up in Heaven,

I pray she will be!

I wait for my time-

One day I will see.