I have a secret. . .

I am not a verbal processor.



I am an internal processor. 
       Surprised?

I am!!!  It only took me my whole life to come to this conclusion.  I asked my mentor Shannon a few months back if she thought I was a verbal or internal processor.  Her answer was internal processor and that surprised me.  I have been thinking about her answer ever since and reflecting on my thought-life as funny as that sounds, then the light-bulb went off!  As I thought more and more about it, it all made sense.  All these years and now I get it.  I am in fact an internal processor!
               I think because I am an extravert, this confused me and probably others too.  But it's true, I need time to think and ponder things internally and generally alone, which means I might need more down time then an average extravert, especially the older I get.

       So, when confronted by something, as an internal processor l need some quiet time to process it.  This is why I don't like being put on the spot.  I do not think out loud like some do.  It takes me awhile to think things through.  I am so insanely busy these days that sometimes I find it hard to really have time or the energy to internally process.  


                                      And what I do know is that I need time, period! 

        Though some people may get frustrated with me, especially the verbal processors, I am thankful God wired me this way.  So let me sit back, reflect and process at a pace that works for me.